you.me.and a thousand different ways.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

"he stood between the living and the dead, and the plague stopped."

numbers 16:48

today pastor ruth preached about the hearts of us all, how we somehow seem to be lacking the guts to stand in the gap, to save one more, to go the extra mile, to make a difference. how we sometimes lack courage, need compassion, seek conviction and require consecration.

we sometimes go to God with a heart that's not devoted to worshipping Him alone, we all have ropes that need to be untied by God, and we all need to not allow Sundays in church be a mundane ritual.

we all see gaps all around our lives, yet we don't do anything about it. we speak forth of the desire to be God-conscious, that we all will love, in the like manner of God; yet we always place limitations or checkpoints to how much we would love them. we lack the agape love.

i struggle with it all the time. and it grows to be a major contradiction. yes, we all want to do that, but how can we in that manner, or behave that way, when we're often placed in situations where praising Him could be the hardest?

what pastor ruth said was true: we really do love to a certain extent, and give up after that. 'fess up: how many of us really do love endlessly and selflessly?

i've given up on many people often, and grown to be so selfish at times. i've abandoned situations, abandoned people, and ran away. i've been discouraged, even by my own family and my closest friends. when hurt and betrayal grows to become far too often, i simply lack the strength, the energy and the courage to go through these vicious cycles again and again.

yet, in order to live God-consciously, wouldn't these be things that we'd go through?

if we understand this, why do our hearts still grow cold?

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