you.me.and a thousand different ways.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

and she's gone.
at least, for the next nine months.

the week just whirled by so quickly. i had intended to spend more time with cheryl before she leaves, but my schedule has been so unpredictable it was hard.

but still we had met up on friday night for a night of good music, and meeting up with a dear old friend. suz doesn't allow them to call her the way we used to now, suggesting that they just call her ' susanna'.

but to me, she's my feather duster.

and when my feather duster sang rainbow connection, i could almost see the tears developing out of cheryl's eyes once more.

see, that song holds a special place in our hearts. that and 'follow your dream'.

and this morning at the airport, it was just pure anguish.

i was terribly exhausted, having slept a pathetic 90 minutes the night before. waking up at 5am was a nightmare but the walk to meeting the rest of them was therupatic. we tried to keep ourselves awake by saying the lamest jokes, and laughing ourselves silly a little.

but it's hard to describe the emotions. at times, it felt heartwretching even.

even before cheryl made her way in, tears were already forming out of their eyes. she kept reminding us all that we can't be married until summer and/or two years later, kept reminding the rest to keep her updated on the boyfriend sagas.

we were trying to keep our spirits up, but it was tough.

chy was sobbing like a baby, and the rest of them had swollen eyes.
even cheryl's mom was crying.

it was so difficult. and so heartbreaking.

she would walk a few steps. then turn back and starts hugging someone else again.
even when she went in, she kept turning back, waving to us all.

i just stood there. kept waving. kept ushering her to go in.
kept refraining the tears from falling.

until we couldn't see her anymore.

then i really sobbed.

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