you.me.and a thousand different ways.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

there's a song that's inside of my soul
it's the one that i've tried to write over and over again
i'm awake in the infinite cold
but you sing to me over and over again

broken hearts, lost love. bruised, tattered, burned. feelings that are hard to describe. pain that's hard to comprehend.

what a weird way to start the year.

but it seems as though all my loved ones are going through the agony and the turmoil of broken hearts. not just the normal relationships, but even from loved ones, family.

at the same time, my heart burns at what i've slowly realized about my loved ones, and the tears are just slowly falling for those that i've lost, and for what i'll never gain back.

suddenly, it's just filled with lots of regrets. for the words that were spoken but never meant. for the actions that were uncalled for. somehow, the damage has been done. sometimes, i want to explain myself, but i know that no matter how i try and try, i might never be able to get the truth out in the light.

yes, there's pain, of what's lost. regret, of all that's in the past. i told myself that i'd never live to regret any moment of my life, but that's what i'm going through right now.

life just doesn't seem fair most of the time.

yet, we all know that it's God's calling for even the saddest things to happen, so that we can rely on Him even more each day. to have that immense relationship with Him is just so important, and i hate to say this, but we all take Him for granted.

so what if i pray every night? it's just the relationship, that's most important. like maintaining a love relationship with someone special. if i can't maintain what i have with God, i can't have that kinda perfect human love.

i'm so unworthy. truly. but He's so magnanimous.

so i lay my head back down
and i lift my hands and pray
to be only yours i pray
to be only yours
i know now, you're my only hope

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