you.me.and a thousand different ways.

Monday, January 30, 2006

looking for a different space
seraching for my inner place
out of patience, out of balance, out of time
out of breath, out of focus
these shapes in my mind

may got me hooked on full house. full house -> a house full of love.

the simple and sweet way 2 people fall in love with each other, with the bickering, arguing and that impromptu word of simple affection that leaves both dumbfounded for that moment.

strangely charming, the story.

i know such stories only exist in tv shows and movies, but they're all written by people right? should these stories be labelled as stories only existing in fairytales? or something that we pray and hope to get at the end?

i like the imagining part. it gives us something hopeful to look out for at the end. i know, reality is cruel, and there hasn't been only once where my imagination bubble has burst because of the actuality of the world.

why come down from the sky and see the pain that people inflicted in your hearts' when fiction leaves you contented?

i'm only done with 7 episodes, but i have lost count on the amount of times i've cried. the tears become ironic. i hadn't gotten to the sad part of it, yet i cry at the sweetness of the plot. (so some of us can start to imagine what will happen when it get sad ya?) the mind starts to wonder, and strangely enough, i fall down from the imaginative sky because i see how love for people, family or friends seem so taken for granted of.

and i see how i've taken my Lord for granted as well. how i've taken His love for me for granted. it's a terrible struggle sometimes. i tell myself never to let it happy (again), but it's so hard.

even with people whom you love so much, sometimes it's just hard to decide what is best. for you, for me, for everyone else.

if i placed any sadness in your hearts during this festive period with this, please accept my apologies.

chinese new year postings later ya?

things are changing
so much arranging in my life
i must take hold
i keep on spinning until i find myself again

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