you.me.and a thousand different ways.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

just half an hour more before i turn on the tv to watch my favourite show. it's becoming quite a habit now, to watch "sue thomas" every night. i feel out of sorts not even watching a day or two of it, even though i know that there'll definitely be re-runs anyway.

going back for lessons tomorrow. feeling the pressure of being an university (private) student, with the assignments that are due next week (three of them, no less). on top of my piano exam, fun fair, the dinner next monday at suntec, my kids' piano exam. it's just never-ending. but i still feel a lot of thanks and gratitude inside my heart over what the Lord has continued to bless me with. lots of my friends are still without the security of having a permanent job, whilst i have the luxury of working whenever i'm free.

and we all say God doesn't provide sometimes. what's that logic coming in from?

on a brand new different note, i've finally ended my month-long feud with robby and am talking to him once more. ok.. it's not that we fought or anything (that only belongs to couples), but time just hasn't been on my side. and guess what's the first thing he asked me?

"what's new on the boy boy side?"

hey, based on the donkey years of friendship that we shared, am i the kind that would just date as and when i want to? besides, it's not even a year and a half yet. people always say, it'd take half the time that you were attached to completely get over the person and get into something new.

it's been a year and three months. (thanks for the reminder, good old pal!). ya lah, i'm completely over the person. but i'm not ready to get into something new. coz some parts of this whole thing called 'LOVE' still stink at times.

besides, i've said a prayer to God about this before already. i had told Him, the next guy that he brings me, is going to be the one that He has in plan for me to marry. enough of all the heartache, the turmoil of the emotional burden. once is too much to bear. i don't know how some people could just 'play the field'. i only touched first base, but i already turned my back and ran home too.

so don't ask me the question anymore ok? you already know the answer.

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