you.me.and a thousand different ways.

Monday, August 01, 2005

amidst all the mess that has been going round, at least school has started. yes, i'm still very much determined to make sure that i get the course over and done with in two years. and though the inefficiency of the administrative staff has left me extremely frustrated, at least the lecturers are pretty good. or at least, the ones that i'm under. and it really sets you thinking.

my first assignment is already giving me nightmares. and i'm still wondering if i'm able to complete it well. gradually now, i understand what's going through the mind of robby when he said it's not easy. it's really not easy. surrounded by people who seemingly doesn't give two hoots about what they're studying, it's really difficult to focus.

no wonder the names of private schools have been so evidently tarnished by the public. with such nonchalant attitude of these students, i'm not surprised. still wondering why did i take that leap of faith and enrolled myself in this, knowing that this would be what i'm expecting. but before you know it, the semester will be over. 13 weeks of school is real quick. then it's quickly choosing what to study, what to excel in.

piano exam's this saturday. yes yes, i'm freaking out. in my heart. i'm still wondering why sometimes my fingers would fumble so easily, and i'm still hoping that this saturday, things would be ok. hopefully now, it will be fine.

on a different note, i've learnt something very interesting.

"i now believe that 'self-love' means going with ease and releasing the need to try and figure everything out by myself. I ask for help and then let go. I now regularly give God something to do." - Jill Goodwin

i'm not the only captain on this ship. infact, i don't think you can call me the captain. coz God's the captain. i'm just a sailor girl, enjoying the ride.

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