you.me.and a thousand different ways.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

it makes things a lot harder these days when you want to take one step ahead, yet realize that you really can't. does it really haunt and hurt so much? i don't know. i came home last night, and the only thing i wanted to do was just to hide under the blanket covers and stare at the walls. cry. weep. sob. wonder. ponder. think. and just let the thoughts that's been lingering on remain the dominance of my heart and mind for those few hours.

now i'm mad at myself for being the way i am. the last thing i need is really to go through all of these again.

it's like you're a drug
it's like you're a demon i can't face down
it's like i'm stuck
it's like i'm running from you all the time
and i know i let you have all the power
it's like the only company i seek, is misery all the time

it's like you're a leech
sucking the life from me
it's like i can't breathe
without you inside of me
and i know i let you have all the power
and i realize that i'm never gonna quit you all the time

it's like i can't breathe
it's like i can't see anything
nothing but you, i'm ~~addicted~~ to you
it's like i can't think
without you interrupting me
in my thoughts, in my dreams
you're taking over me,
it's like i'm not me, it's like i'm not me

it's like i'm lost
it's like i'm giving up slowly
it's like you're a ghost that's haunting me, "leave me alone!"
and i know, these voices in my head, are mine alone
and i know i'll never change my ways, if i don't give you up now

it's like i can't breathe
it's like i can't see anything
nothing but you, i'm ~~addicted~~ to you
it's like i can't think
without you interrupting me
in my thoughts, in my dreams
you're taking over me,
it's like i'm not me, it's like i'm not me

i'm hooked on you, i need a fix
i can't take it
just one more hit, i promise i can deal with it
i handle it, quit it, just one more time then that's it
just a little bit more to get me through this
i'm hooked on you, i need a fix
i can't take it
just one more hit, i promise i can deal with it
i handle it, quit it, just one more time then that's it
just a little bit more to get me through this..

why can't it just be over?

once is enough. ain't gonna be addicted no more.

i don't want memories. i don't want thoughts. i don't want dreams. i don't want anything. anymore.

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