Tuesday, July 27, 2004 today is a start of a brand new day. a day of wonderful beginnings. i'm not going to be holding on to my heavy heart anymore. i'm letting it go now. i don't want to hurt myself. i'm tired of hurting myself. i'm tired of crying. of pain. of confusion. i'm tired of having questions never answered. i'm gonna be my own person now. i'm gonna be a brave new girl, and i'm coming out.

today went to school with a whole new excitement. rushed to tell sharene about my decision about my life, and she was so happy. i'm so glad she's here. she makes me so glad knowing that god's here. she just keeps reminding me of it every single day and i'm so glad about it. thanks dear :) had lunch with sharene, zoe, and meh meh and farina joined us too. surprisingly... weird isn't it?

came home after lecture, dropped my books, took my piano materials and alan came to pick me up to go to the hair salon. but decided to not do my hair in the end. just sat there and stone.. while anna trims her hair. after that went back to my grandma's place to have dinner, and to talk a while before my grandpa sent me to teach.

came home and started doing 2 boring tutorials. now sitting in front of the pc, and waiting to start to do my work, but haven't got the heart to. sigh... i think i'm really just dead tired.

but gonna be strong.. i'm gonna be strong.

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