you.me.and a thousand different ways.

Friday, July 30, 2004

am home after teaching today. joanne is a good girl, and i think i wouldn't have any problems with her. just a little worried about getting back every time i finish teaching. that area in serangoon is so dark and practically deserted. thankfully for the fact that it rained today, so mrs wong (the parent) was nice enough to send me out to the bus stop at serangoon circus.

now feeling indecisive about asking for help. should i or should i not? actually i think i should be able to handle the journey and brave the darkness, and i don't really want to impose on anybody. but it's just insecurities that's attacking me now. i'm afraid. that place can be very spooky. oh well.. we shall see what happens in the next few weeks.

but who's here to come fetch me anyway?

today was such a dreadful day. decided that i'd have a hard time trying to finish whatever that i'm doing at e-business. really should have spent the 4 hour break in school going to Bishan or something to have a nice lunch. I think the four of us were practically dying of boredom! thank goodness we managed to leave at 4pm promptly. I know Sharene & Zoe & Meh Meh straightaway went home to get some beauty sleep. I ended up watching amazing race on AXN and having dinner before going to teach. How I wish i could sleep like them too, but it was just too late to sleep, and I'm afraid it'd affect my sleep tonight. I haven't been sleeping well, and also been sleeping very little... hopefully, tonight will be a good night!

had marcus calling to entertain me on the phone. such a funny guy! sometimes he's just what i need to perk up my boring and dull day.. strangely enough, he decided that he wanted to speak to me in English instead!! anyway, am just so glad that he's around in my life.. makes me laugh whenever i'm down. And he knows it strangely enough as well, even without talking to me. Now that's what i call a real friend!

and really, i'm trying already. i really am trying. but please please understand that it's hard.

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